My Bday!

Today was my Bday and such a beautiful day it was!
The best thing about the Bdays is that all your most cherished friends call u up! From far and near. It feels so special! :)
The whole day, thats how everyone made me feel- SPECIAL! Mama, Papa, my whole family, all my dear friends.....i just wanted to say thank u to u all!!! I was so excited about my Bday, and u all did make it memorable for me!
And Prabh Sir, Reety, Prerna and KD.....thanks for the awesome afternoon! I was truly stumped when u guys produced the cake. At that moment, i did actually feel a lump in my throat. It was such a touching gesture....i just dint know what to say! Thats the moment when i decided to write this blog post.
Thank You All!
Showering of such love and care is actually so humbling! i m feeling blessed! And i m feeling So Rich!
You all made my day!

Fool's Paradise

“Close your eyes. Focus on your rhythm. Relax.”
“Now imagine that you have just woken up, fresh from deep sleep. You are at peace, you are happy. And a voice tells you that today is your perfect day. Today, you can do all that you’ve ever wanted to do. Sans any inhibitions, sans any regulations. All your wishes will come true on this special day."
“How will you live this day of yours? Live it in your mind”
I did this exercise on my friend and could see her lips slowly curving into a smile as she went deeper and deeper into her imagination. She looked serene.
After a few minutes, she emerged from her reverie. With a beatific smile. That whole day, her eyes glowed with a joy. That smile didn’t quite leave her.
Late in the night, she messaged me to say how magical her day had been.
Imagination, I concluded, had the same impact on everyone.

Yesterday was the first of a week of holidays. I woke up feeling as free as a bird. The much dreamt of freedom was mine at last. With no deadlines to struggle for and no schedules hammering my head, I felt quite a Princess of my own time. I could pamper myself fully with all the luxuries a busy day couldn’t afford. The thought delighted me.

Yesterday had the potential. It could have been my Perfect Day.
Could have been.

Instead I went to bed last night with a numb mind, a mind that had thought too much, aimlessly, the whole day. I had thought and slept. Just that. And my mind had been rendered numb by inactivity and disuse.

I don’t know why I do that. The whole day, I was “just going to do” one of those things that I had been keeping for my holidays. They had been the reason why I had been looking forward to these holidays. They were my idea of a luxurious day. Reading novels, writing my thoughts down, going for a walk, watching a movie. The vision of doing all that was so exciting! And yet, the whole day, they remained suspended in the vacuum between Intention and Action. And went back into the Never land of Intention, leaving me despondent and disappointed.

Why did I thus betray my self? Had i done those things, I would have felt fuller. Instead I had acted to wreck my belief in my ability to do the very things i love. Was I running away from my own happiness? Why?

I don't know! Today too has passed in a trance. My mind full of my dreams. My mind dulled by inactivity.

Am I creating my own mirages? Chasing them, and yet ensuring that they remain just distant mirages?

Does Imagination have the same debilitating effect on everyone? Or is it just me?

The Noble Ideal

Ai aasman hain ishq tumse chand ne jab ye kahan
haathon ko dal kar jeb me aasman kuch has pada
mujhse se nahin , mere andhere se, roshan ho tum jiski wajaah.

While the moon says it is in love with the sky ...its only in love with itself, because the darkness of the sky gives the backdrop against which the moon appears brighter....in the triveni the last line is said by the sky to the moon.....Gulzar

While sifting the shers that I've saved on my comp, this one set me thinking. The imperfections in others reassure us, and so make them likeable to us. The real challenge lies in acknowledging the Perfection in someone, and be able to love them still. Because that would require a humbling of our own Ego.

This reminds me of another quote that I read recently...

True Friends are those who share your happiness with you. Almost everyone turns up when you are grieved.